Hello friends! Today I want to talk about how I feel about the United States opening up despite the spike of Coronavirus cases. Now, this is 100% not meant to be a political article, nor should it be taken as such. I simply want to share my feelings with other teens to connect with others and let them know that they are not alone. This particular post is also special because it is the first of a series! As we approach my 6 month anniversary, I’m starting to find my footing and figure out how to do what I originally planned, which was to create a space for my peers to come to for comfort, inspiration, and guidance.
The series, for lack of a better term, is entitled “A Teen’s Take [on…]” and is relatively simple. In these posts, myself, or another teen blogger, will share their feelings and experiences with/on basically anything. The goal/mission of these posts is to relate with fellow teens and to give adults an inside perspective on modern-day youth. With that being said, the following content is just my personal experiences, as I cannot and will not speak for teenagers as a whole. Now that that’s said, let’s get on with the post!
I’m scared. I’m scared to return to normal because there no longer is one. No matter how hard society as a whole wants to go full speed ahead back into the everyday lives they knew before lockdown, it’s not plausible. I’m scared that things will get worse and all of the hope we stockpiled with our toilet paper will be lost. As selfish as it is, I don’t want to miss out on any more of my high school experience. The things we’ve been looking forward to for years have been ripped from us. We grieved and then got excited for what’s to come next year
That’s not even the beginning of my worries; I’m a very anxious person. My anxiety is flaring at the moment because I was thrown back into the world. I really enjoyed being at home. I’m an introvert– going out isn’t my thing. Not to mention the immense stress school brings me. The environment is so toxic and learning from home was extremely beneficial for me. (Trust me, I know how self-absorbed I sound right now, but someone has to say it!) I found myself during this time. I worked really hard to build a new persona and confidence. What happens when I’m introduced to social situations again? Does it go away? Will I come back the same skittish girl, despite my new personality?
My point in all of this is that I’m scared, but I feel like I’m not alone in that. It completely makes sense to be scared. We are entering a whole new world that dramatically changed over the last four months. No one knows what’s going to happen: How school is going to look, if our parents will get their jobs back, if we can we play our sports that we’ve been training for for months on end. Even if it will happen again, and that’s scary.